Happy Wednesday everyone!
It’s been a while since I’ve given an update about me on here, so here goes…
I’ve been off work for a bit with an eyelid infection. I’ve also been dealing intermittently with depression lately so I apologize for not being adamant on my blogs.
Today I decided to go to the park and work on some pictures for my future blogs. Also I thought a little bit of fresh air might help me feel better. I’m supposed to go back to work this Friday but it’s contingent on the condition of my eye and how I feel.
I wanted to take a moment and let you know what I’ve been going through lately. It’s been almost two months and I’ve only worked 3 trips (my average is 4-5 per month)! Ever since I got out of the hospital over a month ago, I haven’t really been feeling myself.
Actually, if I was to be honest with myself…I haven’t felt “myself” since I’ve moved to Vegas. Don’t get me wrong, I like it here! But through therapy I’ve learned that since I’ve moved here the Universe was giving me a hardcore life teaching once again. That here in my desert, I have nowhere else to run. That I need to finally stand at that mirror of my self-reflection and be honest with myself and once and for all let go and self-heal 100%!
Per my therapist, I’m trying to get a more stable work schedule for next month. I’m really trying to prioritize my mental health and therapy sessions. A majority of my days are good and as I said before, it’s intermittent depression. But for those not so good days, sometimes I wish there were some kind of fairy dust that I could sprinkle that shit all over me to make me feel better. But all I can do is take a deep breath and keep fighting.
I know some may look at me like I have my shit together and why would I be depressed when I have so much to look forward to. But depression is like that. Sometimes through the crap we’ve been dished out our whole lives just needs to get sorted in a different perspective. I’ve been working on that process my whole life…more so now working through all those perspectives and hoping to come out better than ever.
On that note, I hope everyone’s week is going good! And for anyone dealing with depression, I empathize and sympathize with you. Our worst enemies are ourselves. We just need to find that little light and hold onto it with all our might. Be well, be happy and be you!
Hugz & Kisse,