Happy fun day Sunday!!!
I just recently posted another life blog, “Understanding My Depression And PTSD” which was written in the raw and with an unprotected vulnerability. I hope that it gives you a little more insight into my life and maybe someone can relate to it. As you engage in that reading please keep an open-mind and let it really sink in. Now as for how my past week(end) went…
I still haven’t worked in probably a month and I’m close to going crazy. Just kidding but there is only so much you can do at home. Right now I’m trying to build my schedule for next month but I came across an obstacle. Apparently the app that I use to do my trips on may possibly have been hacked. It was so frustrating because I had some decent trips on my board for October and then all of a sudden they were gone. It’s already hard right now with getting any good paying trips let alone any trip(s) since our Max’s have been grounded. And now for someone to be messing with people’s trips? Ugh!
I love my job but things in the aviation business really need to get better. I don’t mind this down time but I miss working. When I work I’m more active and pretty much in a great mood because I get to travel and meet a bunch of people. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still doing stuff and being active while I’m not working but it’s just different. To be totally honest, I just don’t want to fall into a depression state (even though my new meds have been working great) and deal with all that again. Like I said, I’ve had a few not so great days lately but my boyfriend has been amazing in mentally supporting me through this slow time at work. To be frank, lately I’ve been feeling inadequate because I’m use to working and being independent. I mean I can be co-dependent but it’s just nice when you can contribute in the household finances, you know? I think that’s where a lot of my depression is coming from lately but I’m staying positive for it to get better.
I apologize if I seem to be going in circles with this blog but like I said, I’m almost on the verge of going stir crazy from not working (laughing). I’m also happy these new meds are doing well with me because I probably would of lost it by now. But on the positive side… everything happens for a reason and I’m trying to stay focused. Easier said than done but I’m pushing through it… that’s all we can do, right? So on the optimistic side of this down time I’m going to be working on my next life blog but I’m not sure which one it will be. Who knows, maybe I’ll end up dishing two of them out?! We shall see……
Until next week… make the most of your days, look for the positive in the storm(s) and smile!
Hugz & Kisses,