Hello and happy Sunday! Hope everyone got time to relax, make great memories or made it a productive weekend!
Lately, for me, every day has seemed like a “weekend” since I have not yet worked at all this year. I wish I could say that my days have been eventful but they are a hit or miss, depending on how I feel. And considering my uneventful life lately, I’ve realized that my Weekly Flygirl Fix won’t have much to tell in it. So I’ve decided to just do the Weekly Flygirl Fix bi-weekly until I get back to my normal schedule with things to actually talk about.
Also, in staying true to myself and to all of you who read my blogs, I have to speak from my heart. I have not been feeling 100% like myself lately considering my on going back issue. Although a few months ago I did find the a great medication to keep my hormones in check (not that I like meds but if it works… hey, why not) lately due to my back issues I’ve been feeling under the weather. I find myself fighting for some motivation to go on social media and to even try getting stuff done around my house. This back procedure I had over a month ago has not been working out like the last one I had, which has led me to struggling with my daily activities. I recently got another MRI and even though I’m not a doctor, I can see from the results that my back does not seem to be up to par as I thought it was. I have a doctor appointment Monday to see what the finally say is but I don’t think it will be anything I want to hear. I don’t want to put the cart in front of the horse but I think that I’m going to have a major pivot point in my life next week to face. I absolutely love my job and fear that it may be over quicker than I would like. I’m trying to stay optimistic but it’s hard when you’re an Empath and kinda know what the outcome is going to be.
I know that this cave I have crawled into is only temporary and everything happens for a reason. The hard part of it all is that I’m not ready to give up flying, I’m not ready to give up being active but I’m also not ready to give up on this life! In some strange sense I feel as this is just the Universe teaching me something else to relate too, whether I understand it or even like it or not. And as for this cabin fever… at times it seems to get the best of me but then I think… it could always be worse. So for now, I take it one day at a time and brace myself for the worse but hope for the best. And at the end of the day…………… I will just be grateful that I’m still breathing and able to appreciate this life. Because no matter what I am going through, there are others with less than I have, others that are in far worst situations and others that would hope for just one more day of breathing.
I know this blog is a bit depressing but then again… it’s how you perceive it. I tend to see it as someone telling it like it is and just being real and thankful..
Hugs & Kisses,