It’s been awhile since I really given a detailed update to what I’ve been doing. But before I begin to tell you… I want to say, I know we are in crazy times right now but don’t feel like you are alone, because you’re not.
On that note, forgive me if I repeat any pix or things I’ve already might have said but I want to give a full detail blog of what I’ve been doing. I’m sure some of you know, I haven’t worked at all this year. Actually, there was one day that I did a turn but that was only so I would be eligible for my 120 days of health benefits before Cobra would kick in. That turn normally would of been easy peasy for me but due to my back problems… I definitely was paying for it later that evening. I had another back ablation done in the beginning of January and thought that I would recover after a week like the last one, however, that wasn’t the case. Before this whole Corona virus started, I was dealing with pain and discomfort and unforeseen financial hardship. I was suppose to get my surgery on March 5th but ran into some challenges with my medical insurance company. I won’t go into details, why bore you (lol), but I will say that it definitely made me want a drink at the end of the day.
Just when I thought I was going to get my surgery, get some relief and be back to work, barricades kept coming my way. I couldn’t get the full surgery but partial and eventually I was fine with that because I was willing to take anything to give me some kind of relief. Then after pulling my hair out with dealing with doctors and insurances, I thought I was at least going to get some kind of surgery this Monday. Nope. Another blockade came my way but again, I won’t go into detail but know this, I’m not done fighting to find some kind of relief.
Along with dealing with all of this, here comes along this whole Corona virus. Everything happens for a reason, whether we know that reason or not in that moment. Although prior to all this I was upset about how I’m going to pay my bills, this just made it worst. But you know what, in a weird way now I don’t feel alone. I know that there are a lot of people that are going to be in my situation or even worse. I just hope that we all get through this…. All I’ve been doing is watching the news because things have been changing daily. I’ve also been keeping up with what’s been going on with my co-hearts and the company I work for. I have no words to describe all the emotions that are going through me because I never thought in my life time I would be seeing the world like this.
I’ve been trying to deal with pain and discomfort. On any good days I’ve been trying to be productive. And then each day, with all the news and social media I’m seeing and reading… I’m trying to stay positive. I know there are a lot of people that have been self quarantined for a week or two but I’ve been pretty much self quarantine since January. For the past two days I’ve been dealing with creditors and although it may be frustrating, I know I’m not alone. To those of you who are in the same boat as me, a lot of my creditors are working with me. I had one credit card company close my account but I’m okay with that, these are hard times. I’ve filed bankruptcy in 1986 and rebuilt my credit then and can do it again. I have a bank account and auto loan with Wells Fargo and they are being very flexible in helping in this time of hardship. I just want those of you who are worried about your bills, call them, it may not be exactly what you want but something is better than nothing. Hang in there!
I know these times are scary. I know the unknown can be unsettling. But when you’re feeling overwhelmed… please remember, you are not alone and we are all in this together!!!
Hugz & Kisses,
P.S. Please forgive me if this blog is all over the board. It’s late, I’m hurting and I’m tired. But I did want to post something and let you all know… there is light at the end of the tunnel! ❤
“Difficult times have helped me to understand better than before, how infinitely rich and beautiful life is in every way, and that so many things that one goes worrying about are of no importance whatsoever.” ~ Isak Dinesen